You are here (Happy New Year)

I'm a fan of fresh starts. And while I believe that it is possible to make a fresh start at any time, the beginning of the calendar year always feels to me like a special opportunity.

I have been feeling stuck for a long time, wishing I could change things that are beyond my control —wishing to change the past, wishing to change other people.

I have been unable to let go and accept. I have tried many times only to fall back and admit that I was still hooked, still angry, still disappointed, still hurt, still wishing I could change the outcome of past events.

Let this new year be a truly new year for me. Let me embrace what is and release what is not.

There is only the present moment. The only person I have a hope of changing is myself (and that's difficult enough).

Here I am in the present moment. I have a job to do — to be myself on my own path. I need to forgive myself for getting lost, for betraying my own authenticity and autonomy. I choose to recommit to myself in each present moment. 

Here is a moment. And here is another. And I am here. In these moments. Free to be myself (honour authenticity). Free to make my own choices (honour autonomy).

This feels like a challenge. And I believe that it is possible.

That makes me very, very lucky.

And for that, I am very, very grateful.