So, uh, I'm building a cabin, yeah?
Well, I'm not building it. I might contribute some amount of work to the project, but mostly it's going to be built by other people.
People who know what they are doing.
And that's a good thing.
So far, I am finding this a tremendously complex and daunting process. There are so many different people who need to do so many different things. Estimates have to be requested, acquired, considered and selected for each element of the project.
Decisions must be made.
I confirmed my third contractor today – and I am having a full-on anxiety meltdown.
I'm not entirely sure why. I mean, what's the worst that can happen? It can all get horribly fouled-up and I'll wind up with a bunch of debt for no actual building or a building that I can't live in and I will have to declare bankruptcy and lose this land, my shed, my un-winterized tiny home on wheels, the new building (or some unfinished part thereof) and have to start over from scratch.
Well, that's not so bad, is it?
Afterall, it's only money and security and the comfort of feeling like I'm good at modern life. I think I can live without all of those things. I think I have the resilience to come through this if it's a massive disaster.
But, I hope it won't be.
Please, please, please, don't be a massive disaster.